i hope im not

falling too fast for this guy. sooo i have found a new guy! omg he treats me very well,he respects me, makes me laugh,very sweet,he does little things for me, he remembers what i like and dont like,he drives, he has a job,has goals....hes very cute...idk i dont wanna mess this up...im so thankful for him...ive asked myself everyday since i met him what good deeds have i done to get such a fine young man like this? i am so GRATEFUL!!!!!fuuuccckk he is just too sweet......oh yeah and hes 23 and im 18 uhhh yeah hes 5 years older than me...but i dont care hes down to earth and everything! im happy....very happy. im so glad hes patient towards me and understanding! i wish he was here honestly! hopefully this lasts<333333 now what do i do? im honestly like thinking why does this guy like me?? idk ahhh!!! im thinking about it too much honestly im just gonna take everyday as is!<333

fuucckkkk mang

i have not blogged in about 3 months. shit, since summer was begining i think ahh so much has happened in my life but i didnt really have acess to a computer or i was just too lazy! lol but now im back bitches and ima try to blog regularly now.....well right now im in east la college...full time student. yup graduated from mhs this june class of 09. this summer was a mix of everything school, family, friends, drinking and what not it was mos def a good summer.....uhhh schools going pretty well theres nothing really to complain about the classes and the teachers are really chill :] so thats a good thing!....and the boys are definitely cuter ;]] hehe its funny cuz i didnt really get hit on in high school but now shiiit lol but idk im just looking for a nice real guy no games or anything. i just want something real for once. well hopefully ill find him! ooohh and theres a cute guy in my english class so its all good oohh and hes a tall heavy metal guy just how i like em.....well yeah ttyl fellow bloggers! show some love cuz im back son! :]

ill always be there 4 u my future love

damn havent blogged in a while :] so these past weeks have been dope...i graduated high school lol fuck u mhs! sons of bitches...ive just been bumming it trying to look 4 a job...drinking with friends having fun started jogging by my riverbed, trying to learn how to drive. its been a good summer so far really fun and chill. just going with the flow! im really positive and happy right now :]. i got accepted to this class @ elac. and im gonna be studying this summer in a couple of colleges like UCLA,usc and csula :]. yay i was so happy! its only the beginning of my future. wow i cant wait to start the classes! its so exciting...well yeah thats what ive been up to!

giving up

im tired of trying, never getting results of being such a negative person fuck it im just gonna let people come to me!....fuck them all my so-called friends..
im giving up on them...i dont need them i already have my real friends :] the o.d.s.s. crew <33 i love those girls...so fuck you all..i wish i could move far away from here i fucking hate it.. i wanna leave and only come for my family...fuck this L.A. douchebag attitude that everyone has we live in fucking l.a. county bitches get it straight...fuck ur raves fuck ur exstacy......fuck you all...im done with you assholes. im done befriending douche bags!

Michael you will be missed!

R.I.P. Michael Jackson you were a huge influence in my life...your music will always stay in my heart..1958-2009...idgamf about the rumors i loved his music...and thats all should matter now.


this was my favorite song from you, i loved you michael rest in paradise