fear of the future

omg there are only 7 weeks left in the school year.
and 8 weeks till graduation .
ive been so busy lately with classes, homework,projects, tests and applebees.
its like all this information is being fed to me and i keep making all these to do lists but they end up being lost in the shuffle of other to do lists.
in the end it will be worth it though just for that fucking diploma..
but im so afraid, so anxious and excited.
i am so tired of high school. i have complete senioritis right now.
i hope this new chapter in my life will be exciting and happy and all that cute shit.
or maybe all the gloom will stick?
will i be this lonely little loser girl for the rest of my life?
or is it just a phase??
well that i dont know and i cant predict...
im scared..i dont know what to expect...am i ready for this...for "real" life?
am i ready to be treated as an "adult"?
the true panic is setting in.
fml